Diary of a stubborn trader: scalping EUR/USD without indicators

I open this journal to record my scalping operation in EUR/USD without using indicators. Only PA, liquidity levels and strict risk management. I want to see how much I can progress being disciplined and without looking for miracles.

First day: 9 operations, 6 winners, 3 losers. +1.7R net. The most difficult: not to enter because of anxiety. The best: I respected all exits by stop without touching anything.

Second day: 5 trades, 3 winners, 2 losers. +0.9R. I left early in an operation going for 2R. I sabotaged myself out of fear that I would back off. I have to work that out.

Third day: 7 trades, 4 winners, 3 losers. -0.3R. Two impulsive trades without clear entry. I’m beginning to see that the problem is not strategy, it’s me and my lack of patience.

Does anyone else feel that the real enemy is not the market but your own finger on the mouse? Sometimes I feel that the best tool would be an alarm that prevents me from operating.

Fourth day: I operated like an idiot. I entered without confirmation, without context, just for "looked like I was going up." Result: -2.2R. This diary begins to seem more confessional than technical analysis.

Fifth day: I decided to take only two tickets. They were good, both winners, +2.5R. Less is more, at least for me. I understand that operating less gives me more clarity.

Sixth day: I didn’t operate. I saw opportunities but I felt anxious, so I preferred to look at the market without entering. I think it’s also part of the process to learn when not to operate.

Seventh day: 3 trades, 1 winner, 2 losers. -1.1R. In the last inning I adjusted the stop for fear and ended up being swept away before going for it. I learned nothing today, I just confirmed my mistakes.

I'm beginning to suspect that if I sold signals and didn't operate, I'd be a millionaire, because I always see the move right after I left.